the more i see, the more i come to realize that what we see is mostly a defected vision. we're trapped inside our own heads; looking for an identity that doesnt exist; relying all our life on words of our own invention that mean what we dont want them to mean and do a lot more than what we bargained for.

*the guitar*_*
*the music
*poems
*reading all kinds of books - from war books to sci-fi to high melodrama to fantasy to bizzare.
*winter sunshine
*cherry blossoms - sakura
*meaningful-ness
*symmetry
*anime/manga/sketching
*fools
*evolution
*miracles

neutral milk hotel, modest mouse, circle takes the square, city of caterpillar, the national, cap'n jazz, jimmy eat world, the spill canvas,elliot smith, bright eyes, thursday, brand new,silversun pickups, hawthorne heights, the postal service, the juliana theory, texas is the reason, saosin, from first to last, the promise ring, minus the bear, his infernal majesty, pg 99, rites of spring, armor for sleep, pretty girls make graves, the get up kids, hot cross, cursive, the fall of troy, the arcade fire, dashboard confessional, american football, the appleseed cast, cute is what we aim for, mineral, incubus, nation of ulysses, underoath, paramore, the killers, sunny day real estate, red hot chili peppers, kill radio, band of horses, muse, rilo kiley, taking back sunday, silverstein, the early november, emery, alexisonfire, saetia, afi, blink 182, coldplay, coheed and cambria, death cab for cutie, jack's mannequin, rooney, the matchbook romance, motion city soundtrack, phantom planet, the weakerthans, sherwood, of montreal.

its a long list that i wont bother making.

ONE DAY I'LL SHOOT ELLEN DEGENERES AND PROBABLY LARRY KING TOO.

a beautiful mind ( i went insane for almost 1 week after reading that. dont try it.)

"I have no money, no resources, no hopes. I am the happiest man alive. A year ago, six months ago, I thought that I was an artist. I no longer think about it, I am. Everything that was literature has fallen from me. There are no more books to be written, thank God. "This then? This is not a book. This is libel, slander, and defamation of character. This is not a book, in the ordinary sense of the word. No, this is a prolonged insult, a gob of spit in the face of Art, a kick in the pants of God, Man, Destiny, Time, Love, Beauty. what you will. I am going to sing for you, a little off-key perhaps, but I will sing. I will sing while you croak, I will dance over your dirty corpse." --------henry miller