ok... i cant even describe the pain im feeling in side me right now... i want this person back so bad, he means so much to be.. ive like him since 7th grade, and and the more we talked the more i feel in love with him... i had him... we were just about to get back together.. and now... im freaking retarted, and i cant ever think straight... hes the love of my life, and he was there, and i had him, and now hes gone... we havent talked in a month, and its the freaking hardent month ive ever lived... now, i cant get things right... school is getting worse, im failing 2 classes, work is worse then school, i dont even make enough to wipe me ass, and they only work me like 11 hrs. a week... home, my mom found out my grades, so things are shit here.. so yeah, i lose the love of my life, i may not be able to play volleyball, because im on acidemic suspention, meaning i cant play any sports untill my grades are passing, my job freaking sucks, and alls i want to do is sleep for the next million days....