I am 23 and I will be 24 in May. I do not want to talk this as life experience. Yes, I have not reach half way of my life. But here is what I think through what I have been through so far.

I would like to say it is very hard to find genuine affection these days. I have met a lot of friends in my life but I am not sure about what they really think of me or how they value friendship and love. For some of my dear friends, I fought along and share the bad times with them when they were in need. For some friends I even took them out of jail. My point is I will try to help them within my calibre. I am not a trouble maker and I am blessed so I do not need much help most of the time. The sad thing is people do not come to me when they do not need something from me. My life is not perfect and sometimes I do need support(at least some moral support) but nobody really care. There are some good friends though but i would say very very few 5% out of 100. Time is the answer on who is genuine and who is not. My genuine friends know who they are. To my dear friends, no matter how you think of me I will try to be there when I can but good luck on how others think of you.

In my love life till now, I must admit that I have quite a lot. Some good, some bad and some I need to apologize. When I am with somebody I will try to treat the best out of me but I do not know which level if best to them. Normally I do not like to say No when they ask me about something. Girls always like to say guys are not fair but they do not try see guys point of view. No matter what arguement most of the time they are right and when they can't agrue no more they will cry. That is when I have to apologize sometime for no reason. It is all about giving up. It is nonesnese. Some makes me feels so special ( to those I thank you and would like to apologize if I treated you bad ). But you know what? Most do not. Most girls will be always complaining never get enough. They would say that guy is nice, that guy is cool, that guy is rich and to me they will find all my weaknesses and describe them in detail ( God I'm sick of them). I would always try not to mention or cover their weaknesses for them but why can't they do it. I am trying to be the best I could be and if you think it is good enough you can choose you can go. I have my own limit and capacity why most of them expect more and more, do they even think of others. Most girls would complain things I have not done for them and they will not thing what have they done for me.

There are greed, lack of affection, lack of faith and lack of respect. There are too many people like this. Sometime I wonder am I the same to them? Am I one of them? I cannot judge myself . You, my friend is my judge. You can judge me as you like but I would like you to know that I am trying to be a better person. To those who do not trust me and do not believe in me and to those who do not give a shit about me. I would like to say Good Luck to you. For me I would rather be a king in a poor village than being an employee in a big city.

There are some decent things in life, too. Sometime you will even hard to believe how good they are. Your Family. I have never been so good to my family, at least not at my best. My family is the best for me I am greatful to have such a loving family and thank God for giving me. Through good time or bad time they will always be with you. Like it or not they are there. They might be annoying but I know they are true to me. It is ashame that till now I am still asking every penny from my parents. They are amazing. Today is photo taking day for my graduation and I do not feel excited or feel special. My love one, my friends are busy with other friends and I have no family there. A day like this, I miss my family, I miss my sister a lot she is my dearest in my family and I wish she knows how much I love her. To all who reads, I would like to say that I love you and May God Bless you always.